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Drop your gun, drop your gun, drop your gun, drop your gun
Talk to me, Jack, how we're doing? 3-2-1, bang, ring
Happy Sunday. Happy Sunday. Happy Sunday. Happy Sunday. Happy Sunday. Yes. I know. I'm just keep
the church on this like a.
Kind of some more. Kind of some more shit. I'm sorry. Can swear. Part of these
politics, politics, politics, politics. Say how are we doing? Day four, baby. Day four.
You're everybody. Talk to each other right now and then see what's done by this. Say
We'll start my brothers and sisters, man.
Say what's up to each other.
God bless you all today.
Everybody that's new in this chat or new first time
every coming to my stream.
I wanna say what's up, Ezra, how are we doing?
Everybody's telling welcome, man, we got Ruby.
We got Shalay, Birdman.
How are we doing with Ray, prayer, the life?
How are we doing Ezra?
So everybody's saying welcome, welcome, I'm a bug.
Okay, you're a bug, I love you too.
Eat your 10, seven year, how are you doing?
J. Brow, how are we doing?
What's up with y'all?
Every let me see all the first time
times we're looking at everybody's
saying welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome.
We're a big family.
We're come all talk to each other.
Tell me, tell me, there it is.
Hey, how are we doing?
Hey, hey, hey, hey,
we're the trucker.
Like what?
Should I call like a trucker?
Like heaven?
Oh, I'm gonna get churper.
Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
How we doing at the time,
but it's all take to look at that with them.
Toby was good with soy.
Yes, prodigy, justice, cool, me,
is all my own use, of course,
all my viewers, and everybody will win.
How we're doing, excuse me.
Excuse me, excuse me, excuse me, excuse me.
That we should, that we should, that we shouldn't.
That we shouldn't, that we shouldn't, that we shouldn't.
But who don't know?
Well, I want to start off by saying happy Sunday.
Now, bless your, but who don't know what we do know,
especially a lot of the first six seven.
First half of last year, I would always do in our forgotten
for the new people that's in here.
That's the reason I'm here.
I truly believe that with it,
you believe in your religion is Christianity.
You are a Muslim or a Jew or a Hindu or a Buddhist.
And whatever it is, that's you, okay?
For me, it's all my God, you know what I'm saying?
So, I like every Sunday I do one hour, my day I come on in, I take one hour, exactly,
to talk about that, to talk to y'all about whatever you're feeling, whatever you're
all going through, how I can help y'all how we can help each other, just to kind of
chart like spread my platform that I have in the world of God, even more, especially going
into this new year chat, you know what I'm trying to really be on that every year, everything
is Sunday.
Also, since Sunday, it's going to be Monday and one hour here.
Yeah, but that's for you. I'm a hardseats. It's Sunday for me. So well, hopefully most people but
Oh, yes, that's not really pretty much so listen again
Back to normal streams Monday to Saturday then it's back to normal having fun
Doing dumb stuff like with the yesterday all this that I've been been doing we're going crazy so
Every Sunday I tried to decadicate one hour and then I tried to just chill
be a God in his presence, thought the whole day, whatever, whether that's
listen to music, that's the gospel, whether that's praying more or
whether that's whatever you should do this every day, but Sunday especially since
you know I'm saying it's technically a rest day. So I just want to say that
understand if you don't watch this, trust me button, you can be back tomorrow or
good. It should be back tomorrow, okay? But I would love to leave a state even if
you don't believe in God or have extraordinarily likely, you don't have to feel
any pressure, 90 stuff. I don't pay. So, um, we'll have to make a lot of
lots of lots of lots of butt. Here we are, bro. Here we are, man.
Here we are. So we are. Here we are. Here we are.
How are you feeling? Chia, what's the last time we did this? I don't even know for real. I really don't.
Respect as the muscle always, not always always. I love that deep voice. Can you still
a band again? You know what I mean? Um, no, I'm kidding. But last year, you're not funny.
Like he's dead not funny, bro.
Stop.
You're not funny.
We, what's the last one, Bryce?
Gosh, that's insane.
Okay.
Okay.
All right.
Yeah, yeah, here we are, bro.
Here we are.
Here we are.
I would like to tell you how this will quick.
It's a new year.
I think if anyone should go into New Year,
I'm not again, I'm not going to sell you all to do anything.
I don't want to do stuff like that.
I would advise you to go into New Year with.
Not even as a resolution or resolution,
but more as a low advice from me.
To have something to believe in though,
really, really have something to believe in,
like I said, whether that is,
You believe in God, you believe in, you know, a, like, something, even if that's
believe it in your own dreams, it sounds super corny, like it really does, but I promise
you will change the outlook you have on life, like it really, really will, you know,
I'm saying, because you kind of have something to seek, right?
You have something to seek.
And if you have something to seek, you have a reason to even be a love and stay alive
and wake up every day and go chase something.
and so that's the first thing I would say real quick.
But going into today, I would love to really hear your thoughts again.
For people that's new here, I'd like to ask you my chat and through my family and ask
what's all going with you, what's all thinking about.
And just for once, just being real with each other,
because I know there's a lot of shows in this industry that's a lot of things happening.
It's a lot of fun, but I think sometimes it's good to also always circle back a little bit,
it's the, you know, everybody goes through problems, right?
because the problems they go through are tribulations,
they go through all this stuff,
and some people never speak about it.
So you can sit behind the screen,
nobody will judge you,
nobody will see who you are or your face,
whatever anybody.
So you can really say anything,
and we can talk about a lot,
I'm like I said, pinpoint your name,
and be like, oh, why, like, never, never.
There's no judgment so near, I'm saying so.
I want to ask out, man, how we doing,
how we're doing, what's all going through, man,
or you're like, like, going through this new year,
is there's something that you want to be able to change,
there's something you need to like, anything.
Now again, I'm not no pastor, I will say this right now.
I'm not an expert, I'm not nothing,
but I have gone through my fear, cheers.
Is that what you say?
Oh, I don't think that's how you say it.
But I have gone through a lot of stuff.
So I feel like I have a backbone to be able to give you
all some advice and talk about God
and how we see things and stuff like that.
So I'm so the church came back.
So it was really good, but yeah, same thing, same thing.
They talk to me, they talk to me, they talk to me.
So I'm actually here, let's talk to each other real quick.
Talk to each other real quick, as well as everybody can see
what people are, what people are saying.
Okay?
I'm just a couple, let's talk to a real quick.
Gradient college and feel a very lost
of what I actually want in life.
Okay?
Sad because of girls, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.
How do we stay dedicated to our goal
and still have a God in our life?
That's the good one.
I'll talk about less, we have talked about less.
I'll talk about less, a lot, low key, I do.
Um, I'm trying to really make my parents proud, um, how do you overcome the guilty
feel from sinning?
That's where it's the way for God, because I feel guilty and it felt like I don't deserve
God.
Whoa!
Whoa!
You just hit a weak point, digging ding for me!
I'll set it right up.
I'm gonna be honest.
Godly, but Godly, um, that is a, uh,
a great one. That is a great one, okay? I felt that. I felt that I must find.
So I've told you there's many, many of the songs. Go into this new year, right?
Let's start with them. We'll talk about a couple, okay? Let's start with that one.
So the question basically was, how do you overcome the guilt of when you do say,
right? Because you don't want to like discipline God pretty much.
I've struggled with this a lot.
I still do.
It's still one of my biggest struggles I have.
I feel like, and I've always felt like every time I do
sin, now all of a sudden you kind of sit yourself back with God, right?
And I feel like a lot of people would do that.
And you know what the worst part about it is, is that when you
do sin, and you have the mindset of that, it says you back with God.
But by the way, your mind said, here's the back word about it.
Most people, I probably say 90 percent,
day 10 to keep sending from that point
because they feel like, okay, now I've seen one.
It's all God for our shoulders pointed at me.
I'm not just like, keep doing what I'm doing
and shiver away from God.
So he don't care about anyone's.
I've seen them, I've seen them, I'm done for.
You know what I'm saying?
It's not I'm keeps sending,
but what you don't understand is day by day,
month by month, son, honestly, year by year,
all of a sudden, you are six months deep
and you look back and you're like, wow,
I have no relationship with that anymore.
I don't.
I fully signed it, I fully signed it away from God
and I don't know where the stones are giving back to it, right?
I feel like a lot of people come related this
because I'm truly related to it.
like a lot, I've been in an adult cycle of like a lot,
and I think I want to say it's a simple answer,
but it's just more like a mindset switch.
Because let me tell you something, okay?
God will never ever not forgive you for anything
in every day.
Am I listening?
Of course.
is everybody in this church when I was in it.
Of course, it's impossible to be perfect.
You know why?
Because only when I was perfect and is perfect,
it's God, Jesus Christ, right?
So we're all sinners, that's what it is.
But here is the monsters who say,
the are been trying to get and trying to do more, right?
Y'all know this, I know this.
You sing, like I said, you feel bad in the sin more.
When you do sin next time, see it as you sin, but you better go straight to God, straight
to God, and go pray.
Right away, I'm talking right away, the second you feel that feeling that you sin, or
does something bad, that can be from the past, that can be today, that can be tomorrow,
whatever it is that happens, because again we all sin, you have to forgive this.
You fully ask forgiveness.
And when you ask forgiveness, again, I'll tell you right now,
God will always forgive you.
You repent.
And someone said, but what's the point if you're just going to sing again after asking.
I understand you.
Again, you will sing again, right?
Ask forgiveness again.
But I will say this. I won't say this.
If you want to get closer to God and build a strong relationship and just make your life better in general,
when you do repent for a certain sin, right?
You repent and then next time you try to not do it again and then you cut that sin out, you cut that sin out,
you cut that sin out, you try as much as you can and then say a week later a couple of days later,
or the reactor, you've seen, but it's another sin, okay? Then you know you've seen it.
You ask forgiveness again, you repent, and you try to shy away from that sin. So slowly
but surely you cut down all the sins, right? So see you have a hundred sins in a month,
hundred sins, let's just say, okay? It's not scary to be like, put our numbers, but let's just say that,
to make it, make it more clean and understand. You sin, every day, say sin, every day,
but every day when you do sin, ask forgiveness, you cut the cut out one out. So now about any
to the month, maybe you're down to 70s since, right?
But look at it, look at it from this perspective,
from the start of the month to the end of the month.
You've already became a better servant, a better person,
a better human, and that's what you just keep going,
keep going, keep going, keep going,
and that's just going to take a long time.
Why do you think people is not?
What do people is not as close to God or found their calling or found their relationship
gotten to later years because sometimes people need to really cut down and look at themselves
be like, okay, this how I am.
Let's start becoming a better human, let's try to cut down the seeds in all of sudden you see
a relationship with God, I'll start forming better, right?
So there's no rush, there's no race, it's not me versus you, it's not you versus me,
it's you versus you and everybody are supporting, that's where it is, right?
So just my, my, my, my, basically answer that question is just try to not be so hard
himself because God is not going to be hard, and he's not, he's just going to be, he's
It's going to want you to be better, of course, right?
So it's a journey, and don't be so hard to yourself, like take your time and try to
see for what it is and try to figure out your problems and say it and what everything
is and try to cut the mouse a little bit sherry, and you will see how it is really.
You know what I mean?
So that's all I would say on that.
That's really what I would say on that.
I don't know if that answered any questions you all have, or because I guess that I'll struggle
with that a lot too, I do.
I try to get like comparisons, but for example,
who's talking about sending,
again, I would say the easiest thing
that a lot of men do, one and two to be honest,
is, you know, for example, I masturbated, right?
I truly believe it's such an easy thing
to go right back to, like, again,
I'm being very real, I'm being very, very real.
be very real, you know what I'm saying?
You all know you masturbate and then whatever you get to fill inside
that you need to get out and it feels good or whatever,
but the second death done for the second death done for,
now you only go down and you need to start playing
and ask for forgiveness for God, what are you talking about?
But you know what the worst part is?
You knew, you knew before you was giving them into it,
You knew and chat, don't let me right now.
You knew just, I know just everybody else know
that you know that already afterwards
you're gonna feel horrible in gonna ask for forgiveness, correct?
So it's like a pre-meditated sin.
Like you already know going into it,
that is a civil you do in anyone's because
horrible because you're human because
you want to feel something like it's a lot of,
there's not a wrong one again.
Well, there is obviously, but like,
there's nothing, it's not like it's
not human if that makes sense, right? So, again, try to cut down everything. If you
notice it's in already, try to go to a good in your heart and know what God is like,
telling you, instead of going to a mind, that's my best advice I would say. It's your
You know, I guess your God said free from sin don't put something up, it's exactly.
Again, easy to sit and done, but try it, but it's a, it's a long game, it's a journey.
It really is a journey.
It's a full journey.
We all know that.
It's a big journey, so, that's what I would say about that to guns.
I hope that, I hope that give you, give you some sort of direction and just don't be
sorry to yourself, man.
But try to cut out sins, man.
No, you know, told them with the five, give them five,
that'd be five, give them these.
Because you're the five.
Thank you for the big promise for us to see me.
Thank you so much.
Or what else have you ever thinking about, bro?
Or what else have you been thinking?
I'm trying to think about something
that I've been struggling with lately, man.
I'm trying to think.
I try to really help you all talk about something,
but also talk about my own and say,
in, can we talk about how we can stop lust?
My mom's passing, sorry about that, brother, or sensitive.
What I often do nasty, I really don't anymore,
but I be honest, I really don't.
But there's other problems I have for sure,
I'm not honest.
Starting with motivation,
sorry about social media,
I can affect your journey,
because it's really staying in the world
and reading it all, that's a good one too.
What do you think about over thinking,
deal with ending from close people,
I don't know anything with that, man.
For your gloves, how to not stretch.
But, I will say this, I will say this.
I will say these have,
I just want to talk about mine for a second,
bro, I really do, I really do.
Because again, I'm not only here to get you guys from all,
I'm also here to hear advice from you all,
cause like I said, I'm not an expert,
I know priest, I know like that.
I touched on this a little bit, I did a little bit,
what was it, probably like the other day in I've been thinking about it for a while bro,
and I don't really know where to, what's even like, start or go with this but like,
hurting somebody, right?
hurting somebody and I'm not talking about like, like,
punch and whatever it is, like something like that, but, you know, you heard people
when you go to life, you do. Whether that's in a relationship, whether that's family,
whether that's friends, like any type relationship, right? You heard somebody in the sense of
maybe you was wrong in last situations, maybe you was emotionally damaging this person,
maybe you was having a problem with your mom and like maybe how or dad, when, you know,
Maybe they haven't been in your life too much or whatever it is and now you want to try to
like, you get what I'm trying to say, right? So I've been struggling a lot with
swanna still having that burden on me with a lot of people in my life that I feel like I've
just done wrong or like having really been the best, even if that's when I was like young
like 14, 15, whatever that was, I'm struggling a lot to let it go and shine a light.
I'm trying to make up for it somehow. I'm trying to think about ways that can like,
like, does that make sense? I don't really know how to explain this. But like, I feel
Like God is disappointed in me still to this day for certain decisions I've done or
Or how it been before like you know I'm saying it and
I think I've always I think lately I was just trying to do that a lot and think of like them
Could I have done a lot a lot of stuff different for sure, right for sure, but
You know
Sometimes I'm like, it's, it's, it's feeling it's too late, you know, it's too late.
I ain't like, like, we just talk about God forgives.
And I think that's one of the struggles I've been struggling with.
Like, feeling it's a film, guilty, feeling, feeling like I feel like this bad person
where, you know, I could have done better situations and it's never too late.
People are saying, it's never too late, yeah, I guess, I guess, the same keep looking
back in the way exactly I just feel disappointed in my sub by my past. I mean I think a lot of people
a lot of people do struggle with that. But again it's certainly back to me it's talking about where
you know most people especially grown up because literally listen listen to us. I'll listen me
growing up you grow in for a reason right so you grow through the struggles you grow through the
problems you grow through these new things that you're experiencing with life. And again,
when you get older, hopefully you get wiser because of it. So like in the way I would say,
it's just like, I don't, I don't think that way, but I would also lie beyond say that.
I would lie to you if I said, I did it. You know what I mean?
You feel like God is never going to forgive you. I think He's just going to forget about you.
You're a little bit like that, yeah, for sure.
I would say that.
I would say that.
Sounds like you're learning and growing 100%, 100%.
And I think that's important, but I would just say,
sometimes, you know, I can find myself in a pretty deep, deep spot.
Like, randomly, do you ever get that, like, super random?
I'm not even kidding, I've always struggled with this a lot.
Y'all know this, enjoy y'all know this a lot.
Y'all know this, when it comes to anything.
Bro, it could be two days, or it could be a week,
or I'm like, like, everything is good.
I'm working, I'm working hard, like,
obviously I'm going to be stressed about things whatever it is, but you know
I'm working as a good choice, I'm a feel good and then boom I can literally wake up one day
one day, like that's one day, I'm like, what's sitting my shower, what over my head
and they said music's all I want, I'm just giving a fuck here and just sit down
my shower, think of my life, like deep in it, like hours, like you see it, but
like it doesn't make sense to me, it doesn't make sense to me.
And I've been trying to figure out for a long time,
like just trying to, you know, I think, I don't know, bro.
That's human, you right, it's definitely human,
but that's when I start thinking of my damn,
is this existential sort of,
is God putting this to me right here,
so I can deep those thoughts,
if trying to figure out why, what I'm saying,
You get deeper deeper deeper deeper, deeper,
you know what I'm saying.
And I don't really know what that's called,
but music's not a good gelator effect
of frequencies on beyond us.
Music is probably not that.
Music is probably not an answer to it all.
If we age, you know what you're saying?
Or happy or whatever it is?
And you cannot, you know what the word for this?
If you're gonna think about it, if you've said,
and then you put on a sad musical topic,
you just feeling the sadness.
Because now I'm so new to listen to the lyrics and you get more sad.
So what is really doing?
But again, it's human, don't like it and say,
I'd be doing it all the time.
So it's like, see what you're happy.
You start thinking happy and that's good.
Because you get more happy.
But it's crazy when you do it thinking about it, right?
But yeah, I'd be starting with that some time.
So I do, I do, I do, I do.
So I fully get your life, whatever you're,
whatever you're going to be all safe.
I promise you, bro, I'm most of the time,
probably I feel all of it, but if I'm being honest.
But I remember I really, really do remember, I don't know if you all felt this feeling
because it's a very special feeling, right?
I think I'll talk about this briefly before.
But there was a time where I was so locked when it came to my relationship with God.
And I'm a Beyoncé, I haven't been on a level since,
I have not back then at that time,
I had nothing else to do, like nothing, I'm nothing bro.
So every focus I would have would be on gotten this word
and how to be a certain, right?
And I remember I didn't have anything else at that time.
I made no money, as your money and bank account,
I had no job, I had no sort of huge doubt I wanted to do, not the right, so mind you,
at the time I should have had been sad depressed, had all these problems.
But I remember folks in Sohharongad that all of a sudden, like, it took me like, hmm,
for don't that mother, that two month, swear to you, I promise you, please, if there's
any of that felt is filled with, maybe you're in it now, maybe you have, maybe you will
be whatever it is, I promise you I've never felt so much peace in my life ever.
Like every, I will wake up, I will go to Jama, come back, I will pray, I will study the
Bible, I will do all this everyday and I will never feel, I will never feel that much
peace in my life, still to the same by the way, ever imagine I don't have nothing awful.
you tell me how that makes sense. Because if I've been first say it, that God will be
God and speak it through me. He's saying listen to it, the only thing you really do
need in life, the only thing, if you've ever lost, if you've ever lost in everything, you
only street, you have nothing, if you don't have family, whatever it is, if you just seek
our holy holy holy food with your full potential, you won't feel peace, you will give
it at peace because he said, hey, here you go, you decide it. Right, so I remember that
and I keep looking back and I'm like,
damn, I pray, I can get back to that desk,
I pray, I pray that can have that sort of peace
every day for the rest of my life, I really do.
But I also really do think that comes with being a good servant
because when you are a good servant,
you don't say, you don't do that, and you don't do this.
There are more you step closer to him,
the more peace you'll get.
Does that make sense?
So, I think it's a steady,
It's a steady chase and a steady race, and that's why, you know, when, when people say
to chase God, like it sounds like, sounds local fusing and, and, corny, maybe some people
but it's real because the more you chase it, the more you learn, the more you learn, the more
the better you'll be and the more peaceful get, right? So, it's just kind of crazy to think about,
It's kind of creepy, but just like me had too many outside chat bro, that's going so also the more the more stuff you
Have in your life to do
All the magic before a lot of people which I thought you're opening me with them more you also also start shining away from God because most of us really
Let's be honest with you. Most of us, you know you have a job maybe have kids maybe you have school
You have a lot of homework, maybe you have a work, maybe you work over time, like whatever it is, and you know, you turn to get home
And you want to go to sleep, you want to do this, so you put like slowly, but surely you put
God in the gospel and everything away slowly, you don't even notice it, but you'll shy away, right?
So like it's it's again, it's a steady like remind of yourself, it's a steady discipline thing and all this stuff
It's a lot that goes into it, but again, I don't think nobody should overthink it.
I just think you should just try and chase it as much you can.
That's when I will say, you know what I'm saying?
But yeah, how do you keep yourself from losing faith when everything is going wrong?
Jennifer from the� 6.000.
Remember I said before you three was pretty cliché in a scene
or the four things, you know how to overcome.
See, I knew you then.
God wants the variation on the show.
You start to upset such a thing, so you get the stone.
I agree, I appreciate that, but that's a great one.
Thank you for being with us as well.
I appreciate that.
Um, no, but seriously, yeah, that is, that is a great one.
That's a really, really good one.
In a lot of times, I think like I said,
As soon as we know what to do, but it is, it is easy said and done always like you know I'm saying so
Just kind of got to get it a strong mindset really. Are you going to church it's necessary to follow God here's what I think
For example today again, we're being very real real real real real real
Okay, so I went to a different church today, then the one I usually go to
We're super super close mouse that's a big church. I'll let me just try let me try
so
I go to the search, right?
I sit down and there's guy next to me,
his name is Trevor, he goes, oh Trevor, nice to meet you, right?
I go to, I go to, you know, everybody's very kind
of searching, because it's like a big family, whatever.
So I sit down, this is a man, probably 40 years old,
bought, right man, just down six, my hand,
I go to Trevor, nice to meet you.
And when I go to church, I kind of like to be a load,
by myself, a lot, then, right?
So, you know, I sit down and there's a lot of different churches for the people,
for the people who have really been to church. A lot, there's the, a lot of singing ones,
what he's sing about, 80% of it, there's the church where
there's just promote, I was being very, there's the church where they now, really,
They're not really caring about the world, they're just spreading and trying to get money and trying to do all this stuff.
There's like, I'm being very, like, very rough, try to lie to church, run a roll by the way, and a lot, a lot.
Then there's the one I like, where you sit down and there's this priest that really,
you'll crawl over the fire, never fuck on all that abuse.
Then there's the one that really takes you to the world in detail.
That's when I'm like slowly
Do it talks to you like you're almost a kid, right?
God knows I need it
You know, so I made I mean this guy's shabby
Well, I love me guy by the way, but you know
He goes
He goes
Or you open the book or they see mark they open the book. I'm okay. I'm not
I'll open the book, of course, and I'll sit there and break.
I was sitting there and they were singing the gospel for not even joking, like 45 minutes
out of the hour, like swear to you.
I swear to you.
And don't get me wrong, the gospel's very important.
music is very important, personally for me, I need to go there and learn about that
world. I really do. I really really do. Because I'm not the Bryson Bunch. We all know
this. I'm not the Bryson Bunch. I'm not the biggest chip in the chip bag. I'm not the strongest
of course, install, well, probably that,
but not the smartest ones installed, but like I'm saying,
so I kind of need the, you know, saying the word.
So to answer your question, answer your question
if you really need church to feel like you are close to God,
or whatever it is, personally me, I would say,
everybody's like me, it can happen, it can't get me.
You know, we hate for setting the word
and hate people into it.
The course, the course is in the balls too,
and open your hand, just sign in the word on the ground.
Yeah, of course.
The course is for me, and I'm not saying it.
I'm not saying it.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
Thank you so much to appreciate you.
What was I?
What was it?
What was I again?
I was my other machine at the one now.
I think, think, think, think, think, think, think, think, think, think.
What was I to share?
What was that?
Oh yeah.
Church.
So, do you really need church house in this?
I think everybody is their own individual, right?
And everybody finds their own way to connect with God.
That's why I will never, ever sit here and tell y'all
to your face and go, let's see, go to church, what do you do?
Hey, find God right now.
Hey, go find God right now.
What do you do?
But what?
You haven't found God yet?
Come on, boy, you are a mess, girl.
Who would like to say that?
And who would like to tell you, go to church?
Like, I actually don't.
Like, who am I to tell you that, right?
Don't get me wrong now, hear me out of it.
It's all of those things good and will bring you
closest to God and it will definitely will.
The more you do, the better it is, always, right?
But that's like seeing like, say I've heard a church.
Okay, here, I'll give you an example.
Say I've heard every Sunday.
Every Sunday to the rest of you.
But from Monday to Saturday, I'm not doing nothing.
I'm not opening the Bible.
I'm not reading nothing.
By the way, this module, this is a lot of people's lives.
This was my life from a point of no,
because you think that you go to church every Sunday
all of a sudden, what?
You're fully there, you're fully there with God.
He's holding his side by side.
What are you talking about?
You, your, the relationship with God.
is the exact same way with work, with your family,
with your brother, your sister, with all your dreams.
It's the same way.
When they decide to use it, you should chase it,
just as much as Sundays.
Shoot, metaphor, they should be honest with it.
Chays it more even.
Right?
So like, I cannot say whatever you say pretty well.
Okay.
Everything needs effort and work. That's what I'm trying to say. So no, don't feel pressure going to you know ready to go to search that's fine
But try to find other ways for now to build your relationship and and get that strong. You know I'm saying and whatever that is for you
God bless you you know same because you try to work at it so
Again for example today, you know, this is so bad
I'm doing this this so many, so I was in church today, right?
And like I said, they were singing a lot and it was like, it was a lot, right?
And I'm like, don't listen off.
Like, I'm being so honest right now.
I know I was trying to speak, what I saw wasn't, I was on the
timelay in the very time, remember? And I was going to be honest.
I was going to be honest. I was going to be honest. I was going to be honest.
And I know a lot of people probably done this too.
We're happy. That's been real. That's been very real though.
Like it be like that, you know, you don't stop a little bit and you like didn't get kind of kind of catch yourselves. I kind of I'm staying enough
I'm like I'm staying enough. I'm like doing the little stretch of your head
There's people sitting beside you. It's all in some of you put a little you put a little like this because you don't want this guy to judge you for kind of those
mob insurance
Like you don't see it like I'm being rude if it is horrible
It's horrible and you're like the second half you start asking for forgiveness from God
You're like God, please why am I speaking in church right now a lot? I'm hearing the words. I get them same
But that but that's I'm saying that's I'm saying the like
Don't don't think that you everybody has their ways for you know, say everybody's everybody has their ways again
God will you probably judge yourself more than God do that's a crazy part you know say this so
Don't don't don't be taught yourself
So last month, I had to be, yeah, I mean, you know, it is.
And my search, we have words for like 30 minutes,
you have a server for an hour, some 45.
Okay, that's pretty good, that's pretty good, yeah.
I have not had these, yeah, can't sit still
and I'll be in disturbance and my losing faith
or not, don't know, you know, I just said that, not wrong.
Not wrong, pardon, not wrong, pardon.
When that time comes, that time comes for you, you know what I'm saying?
But yeah, but yeah, but yeah, yeah.
Um...
Characters.
So no, answer is answers. I don't think so. I really don't. I really don't.
I really really don't, man. I really don't.
Um, okay, let's do one more chat.
Just do one more. I think we do one more.
One more talk about some rock, rock, rock, rock, rock.
And in the other week, we, we all been having our minds out of high up to high up in
filling, bro.
Like, anything else in life that is going on that I feel like I can give you all maybe
like a different perspective on or like try to give you all my best advice on, you know,
how to interpret it, that into your problem, whatever it is, even saying.
I've been okay.
I think how you doing, how you handle it,
my name is actually moving on.
How to learn about the Bible, love you,
love you too, whether it's moving on from someone,
trying to stop cousin, if you find that out, please, let me know too.
You know, is there any common, common thing that a lot of us is like really struggling
with, let me see a ditching, for the long, how to handle it, and be for other people,
struggling with a ditching, pressing, anxiety, doing it.
Okay.
I'll say this a lot of times.
I've said it a lot of times and I see all of it, I really, really do see all of it, okay?
I do see all of it.
I see, I see lust, I see addiction, I see depression, I see laziness, I see anxiety, like, like,
But I will tell you right now, what's one, it sucks because it's such easy thing
to say that it's not because I've literally gone to all of them, I know it is, but there's
one thing that all of it, there's a big reason behind, right?
It's all religious mental, all mental.
it truly, truly, truly, truly is, whether that's, you struggle with lust, you struggle
with laziness, or like me procrastination, it's really all connected, mental, your mental
and then your relationship, God comes into that because I'll tell you right now and I've
that is multiple times.
You control what you do, full of it.
Like full of it, let's be honest.
Let's be honest, everybody wants to put their plans right now.
You control everything, literally everything you do.
If you wanna go and procrastinate,
I have 100 free time, a lot of times,
for months and months and months,
and you put something not every day,
That is all you.
Let's be honest, at this moment we were older.
You can go and pray about these things every day,
which I still think you should always pray.
But again, it is like I've said in multiple times
and I will keep saying me, what can you do?
You God can only pray about it.
You pray about it, God answers.
Because you will answer your prayer.
I know just so you grab your neck
and he will lead you, he will lead you, he will lead you, he will, he will go to like me, like me, like me, and he will lead you to here, here, the water's right there, the water's right there, but you think God is going to take your head to push it in the water and make you drink, he can make you swallow, make you drink the water, so when you pray, he will help him have the way,
But the other half, that God will be you that step in need in taking me or doing me.
Right?
So like, for example, all these problems we have, procrastination,
um, um, uh, well, so there's a lust, um, sinning, stealing, um,
line, cousin, all these things, all these things, right? There's not a specific thing,
it's a specific thing for each thing that you want to do, whatever it is. But it is a
a common thing with all of it, all of it, is that you gotta really just do it, bro.
You gotta make it choice. You have a choice. We all have a choice. So, say for example,
like we talked about, you all have said that you
hold me in your house alone or a partner in your room
or whatever it is and all of a sudden you start
from the urge of maybe mastering me which a lot like
his life was said last, we talked about it before.
Guess what? Guess what? When you do get that feeling,
guess what? Do you have a choice?
Does there look like this anyone else in this room or by a
side or you're a little blanky by your side that's going
to grab your arm and put on your on your whatever, right?
No, there's not.
And you know that feeling you have,
the feeling you have, that, that, that, that, that, that,
that it's not good, like you know you know that it's not
going to talk about the sinning.
Why do you think you, why do you think you have that feeling?
Why do you think so?
It's because that feeling right there, that's the correct one.
That's the correct one right?
So that's the one you should be following.
Right? But you're in blind, as you biggest enemy, like it truly is most of the time.
But God not pinning your mind, he's putting your heart.
Right? So, what I will say is whatever situation you're in, you will know these things.
It's just try, switch from here to here.
That's actually not a big number of biggest goals this year because last year, right?
A lot of the times, which I know you're not feeling too much in a life, you go with your head instead.
You just go with your head.
For example, I would just give it like a quick example.
It already started 12 o'clock.
It's 12 o'clock.
It's 12 o'clock.
And it's the nearest ebra.
It's the nearest ebra.
It's the nearest ebra.
I'll tell you right now.
family is here, when the house will eat it's about 11 o'clock now, whatever, you know, people are hitting me up everywhere in Atlanta. I'm not trying to sell like that.
That I brought money to come through this party. I got to buy this one pretty much, I'm not trying to do this like whatever part I want to go to after the market went to, right?
Let's just say, let's go on a party. By the way, nothing wrong. Not doing a party in some of that. What have you, like you said?
But I'm not kidding, a couple hours before that, a couple hours before that, I go down
and go, I said, I want to be more consistent here, my stream is tough, this is my personal
thoughts, so I knew I wanted to, the first January start streaming, and I'd be back to
I knew that, right?
I knew that.
So I'm excited, whatever, I'm like, oh, let's go, let's go, whatever, like I can't
with get up to more stream, first gen and straight to it. 11 o'clock comes by and I get
a call from the lake seat, I'll be honest. In Nick and they go, you've got to pull up to
this party, it's lit, everybody was there, they stand other, barbing, smoking, it's a big
party, everybody's going crazy, all this stuff, all this stuff. And again, nothing wrong
like number one or the other stuff, but I will say this a lot of the time you get that
call, and mind you, it's not really true about this call, it's part of it, it's deep enough,
if you're looking about it, you'll get this call in a split second, you see it in front of you,
right? So you see this in front of you, you see, oh, you see the party, you see the dopamine,
you see, you see, you haven't fun for a few hours, you know, everybody, my daughter,
It's fun, it's a lady who's given five and whatever.
But in the all of a sudden, I would be from a 60-year probably, 60-year-old,
and now I want to be an 80-year-old, one, to go to the gym, to start off my new good.
And two, be liable, like, 12 or one.
You think I would have done that if I went to sleep, I'd like 60-year.
Like, like, three, two, get on his go.
Let's go, let's go, let's go. I would have not.
I swear to your marketing, I sat down, I was probably gold.
It's like, time turns, like, 11.30.
And I was like, you know what, for once, I'm just going to listen to my gutness then,
because my girl already told me, you shouldn't do that
because you had your goal that set off your hours of goal,
but now just because you get another reason
to go and have fun and you see right in front of you,
you want to go and get that dope mean and that's it.
So I said, you know what? I'm actually not.
So I let you stay home. I step two seconds out of my crib.
With my family, we all did a big group hug.
Oh, we all did a big group hug.
And we said, happy new year's. I love your,
Let's have a bless here and I'm going to write it inside of eight for like 30 minutes and we'll sleep like around like one
You know what I'm saying?
So so it's like it's
What I'm basically trying to save all these problems we have right is that basically all have a choice
and
Try your best to become
Try your best every day
This is my best idea of last advice try your best every day
to give yourself to here instead of here, right?
And I take this up and it does, because that means that you're going to have times where, you know,
you see that the dopamine or the adrenaline or or what a fun stuff, right, right then and then and there,
because the other stuff that you step up yourself is a way down the line, so like you kind of not digging by the right now,
which I'm saying, so I would say that's my biggest advice with anything, but then obviously you can get into details and deeper into each problem you always can.
By promising, which is all worth it. Like for example, I'm 40s into this now and that just that, you see that little musician that I made to go to sleep instead of like, for example, going out.
So I could wake up and feel energized and perform good and be happy with stream.
Let me look at my streams the past few days.
It's probably one of my best, my best, like right now I feel like I feel my best.
I don't want to jinx anything.
Oh my God, I'm not going to work.
But you see that little little decision, that little decision,
little changed.
Like a few days, because if you think about it, if you think about it,
say I will sleep at that first day.
be that first day. Poverty would have any issues. Let's be honest because y'all know
you when I'm sleepy I get here saying all this stuff. We'll never be so proud of any of that
pretty early or whatever. And then I would have went home and then I would have thought about
that thing that I did bad. So that energy into the next day and then like it's like you
see I'm saying it. So it's just like you think it's a very hard for I can go to school
place. I'll go about promising those little decisions and effects so much. Like if effects
So so much and also the best best thing when you go with right here instead right here in anything
It is literally that you know and you can feel
That God
It's like life
Like this is not crazy, but like I've been looking at it so small and it's like good job
Wow like you been like
You just sat in it because this is not what you usually do
You see, I'm saying, so then death's more volatile effect and goes into the next issue,
making it like, I want to put that feeling again.
Like, you deserve it.
Like, you know, I'm not here.
You're like, you know, I'm not here.
You're like, you're like a little puppy almost here.
Take a little treat.
Like, you know, I can't make action say that.
But like, you're here, I'm saying no.
You got to try to say.
But guys, basically going to reward your effort.
That's what I'm trying to say.
Yeah, it's correct. Correct.
What's up on the first round chat?
I'm going to give it to you.
But yeah, that's just, I mean, that's just my thought process.
But a lot of things, but it really, really, really is,
it really is, and I think it's all supporting that,
that the owners of this year, that you all just
how to stick together, try your best, really try your best, don't let anybody step me
at all, or your fee, or whether that's, like I said, work, or school, or dreams, or
anything like that, just try to study yourself.
I mean, again, I don't want to say it would be a killer to party with everybody like.
I mean, it was officially a year, yes, at least I moved to LA, you know?
So the fact that I've gone through all this stuff and gone into a new year like this,
and I have accomplished things, I have accomplished so far, it's just like that,
in the shows, they really do show and the more you tweet those little of the
says that we just talked about, the more you you understand yourself, the more
you get, the more you'll see what's your what is a trajectory, I don't know
what what what what like where you're gonna go. And I want to be the first one
to say this is first Sunday the year I'm party or I'm proud of all your. And I'm
I'm proud of all those keep going.
I'm proud of all, I don't even,
even saying I can't see exactly what you're going
to behind the scenes, why I'm proud of you, I'm proud of.
I think it takes a lot to even to be here
so there's been a live in, well,
and a lot of people don't tell each other that
or give me advice, I mean, a big thing,
like I said, like, that just woke me up so crazy,
with I don't know if you'll see them, but the Anthony Josh
was being the boxer that fought a day call, but watching for it
so long, so long, so long, and he literally has had such a long career.
He's gone from nobody to being, quote unquote, somebody to almost
to fight for titles and then they kind of not call them up and then
kind of step in a way, unless they've been away, but you know, it
some fights and kind of being saddled a little bit to all of a sudden now he fought
Jake Paul and it went crazy all of a sudden I mean I'll probably take time
but I wouldn't get at it every other every other school I sure like like three
days like everybody's fun knows he's like everybody's like who was this
than the other bro like one for his looks people were saying but two
all's for that he's a good boxer of course and that he BJ Paul so he's got all
this tension I think I got 80 mills on that that 90 mill whatever was and life is
on top, he's doing it with his best friends, literally, and in Joshua, the guy who's
bought them, he goes to Nigeria, which I'm pretty sure it's home country, right? And he
goes to his home country, literally like three days after the fight, 90 beliefs in the bank,
best friends with him on the side, it's probably good for life. You know what I'm saying? It's
back on top again, like life on paper is perfect. He literally goes Nigeria, first instead of
them there is a car crash on the way to his hotel to get whatever it was and literally
both his best friend dogs, both of them, both of them, just like that in the second
goal.
Not one alone, both of them.
So he just went from like with everything, money, power, fun, enjoyment, whatever it is
to all of sort of just get hit like that.
Obviously, rest in peace of them, you're like for sure, you're a god bless them, like
God bless their friends.
I hope God takes care of them and all that stuff.
But it's really woke me up before saying, I don't know why that's a safety bill.
like, damn like, anything you're taking away so quick?
Very so fast.
Now we'll tell y'all, half fun, trust yourself, trust your gut.
Be as positive as you can.
Be proud of yourself.
No matter what that is, be proud of yourself.
I think you've been waking up to the eating breakfast.
Um, and a lot of them are, that's something like, God loves y'all, I love y'all, bro.
That's what I'm gonna say. That's what I'm gonna say, bro. That's what I'm gonna say, man.
And yeah, man, for something back, Jack, for something back.
I got to go to gym too. I got to go to gym, and then I got to, uh,
I got to go to the house, fixed up at the house. I just, this means all day.
I'm a plan, I'm gonna go all this stuff.
Let's, let's, let's say prayer, let's say prayer again.
I'm at a movie with you guys.
No matter where you come from, who you is,
God has good all the time, right?
Dear Lord, thank you so much God for bringing me here today.
Bringing us here today, everybody has watched.
God, thank you for allowing us to be here in this session
to be able to spread your word.
I think if you keep me healthy,
keep me safe, keep an eye on it,
but as watching, safe and healthy,
and their families got anybody that best around them,
got our pray for,
for giving us a pray for a healthy year,
a healthy journey, our pray for everybody
as watching as their healthy,
and that they can feel that they are going somewhere
in their life and walk with all these struggles
which we buy their sideguards.
I want to thank you for today's stream,
And I pray that I can keep this journey going
and become the biggest I can be so I can keep spreading work out.
Again, God, but today, God keep blessing us.
Please give us all our sins, amen.
Amen.
Amen.
Amen.
Amen.
Amen.
Amen.
Amen.
Amen.
Amen.
I love your voice, you're excellent with the big big fog.
Get the pushes away, what do we have right now?
We at 6.89.
We could have easily hit no 7th Dawa today.
I'm not gonna lie.
We could have even lost 7th Dawa today.
I'm not gonna lie to you.
I'm not gonna lie to you.
I'm not gonna lie to you.
I'm also there was no asking the stream as y'all could probably tell.
I'm going to be right up here, but this is straight for me to push, see y'all okay.
I do love y'all chat. Thank y'all so much effort for being here. One hour for God, everything's
back and I try to keep it up. We back to march at and we keep it, keep it, keep it, keep it, keep it,
keep it going, keep it pushing, they form it and I'm loving it bro. There's no stopping, there's
there's this, it's just, it's just, it's just, it's just work, you know what I'm saying? I love our
our boys take care of having a good day talking with Snapchat, Instagram, I'll
have all the way up for get that chat. Please, please sort of come on please please please please
please. Because I'm going to plan a lot to whatever it is. Can you on make it the
register people can just bang them out with ideas for whatever y'all want to see
like like anything based like just think that it's so wide as you can think. Um, and
so if you just keep this ball rolling then you know I'm saying obviously I have a lot
of it. I want y'all input a lot this year so join the comments well. We've been stuck
It's thinking for Watson.
Maybe let's get a little bit of a little bit.
Let's get that a little bit.
Obviously don't let it in the weird ones, but, you know what I mean?
All that voice, chat, take care.
Don't want to talk to life.
God bless all.
We all.
This streamer, this streamer Lord goes to Marla.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
We all.
They can God, he kept me grounded, kept my faith.
I'm a miracle.
So I am the whiskey, my community.
I want to be able to out-saw.
I want to say lastly, my bad.
There's a lot of doubters, a lot of haters always.
I was going to talk, but they're not going to stay on this stage.
So, please, it's all bad.
I'm not sure I'm alive, but I'm so excited
If I told you, we've not come to but I'm ready to go back to me
This hour and a year rise
We earned a break of years
In my way where you better show me that you did say it's in my head
Cause you know everything
Cause where things are coming to you